It's scary how fast we grow up

We grow up so fast that it’s truly terrifying. Memories that just seem like yesterday in actuality are ones that have taken place years ago. And we can look back at the pictures that were once taken of us and only see a stranger of the person of who we once were smiling back. The truth is, I think it’s difficult for anyone to fully understand how we became the person we are today.  We realize that life has been such a blur that it has become a titanic task to even remember this journey we took from being these young faces to being older. 

And as we become old in life, things gets taken from us. And we only learn this as we start losing things that we never ever really believed was possible to lose. We learn that we end up losing and drifting away from more friends than you ever wanted to. We learn that death comes unexpectedly to make our worlds come crashing down, taking someone you never could possibly imagine being away from your life. We learn that strangers you never saw coming have this ability to come in swiftly only to disappear with a piece of your heart; a thief that you probably will never be able to catch. Dreams that inspired us to our best become shattered or replaced only instantly.

And we change. We do things we never thought we would end up doing. We go through hardships and moments of such difficulties that you once swore could of only been thought up in dramatic movies and novels. We meet people and lose people that changes everything…literally everything. And we get caught in crossroads, where there is really no right or wrong path to take, but a choice affecting your entire future that is left up to a gamble. It’s scary how fast we grow up. How once upon a time, our lives were only just beginning and now here we are a couple chapters in with no turning back.

Can’t Sleep.

Do you know those nights where you just can’t sleep? It’s as if the moment you just want to close your eyes is the time where your mind feels like it’s the best opportunity to begin racing with thoughts, memories, and ideas. As you try searching for an off switch, you realize that there may not even be one and you will just have to deal with another restless night. And for few hours, you become a philosopher as you questioning the meaning of life and why the world is the way it is. You become a storyteller as you come up with creative scenarios in your head that may never occur. You become a historian as you able to remember your past while missing or regretting it. In this insomniac time, you lie wide awake trying to figure out your life when all you want to do is to stop thinking.

And the weirdest thing is how alone we feel during these moments. How it feels like we’re the only one awake as people a dreaming in another realm. But truth is, those nights that we can’t sleep, there is someone else out there too. There is someone driving the empty roads hoping that it will bring some clarity. There is someone who is on the internet, listening to music, or watching TV as they are hoping it will take their minds of the things they don’t want to think about. And there is someone like you, just laying in bed thinking. Letting their mind race with their deepest thoughts. At the darkness of night, thousands of souls are awake with you…not being able to sleep.

Heart-to-Heart

I love having hearts-to-hearts or deep conversation with friends. Whether the conversation lasts only a few minutes or lasts hours, you see sides of people that you rarely see. And for that moment, the facade that people wear each day is taken down and you hear what people really think and feel. You even get surprised about about the amount of insight they have about the world, love, death, or whatever you end up talking about. You even realize how little you know about someone you thought you knew so much about when they decide to share personal stories or secrets.
It goes to show how so many of us go through each day really just hiding a huge part of ourselves. And for at least one conversation, it’s cool to see this whole other side come out that seems to represent who we truly are inside.